Many people say they feel energetic and great by now when doing this type of deal.. but I feel a little sick. I'm following it to a T. Taking my vitamins and everything, but I have a sore throat and my whole body aches.. I even feel a bit feverish. I'm not having so many caffeine headaches but I still find myself desperately wanting some coffee. Just a tiny bit. Just a little nip! It's been 9 days!!!!
I really really miss coffee. Today I went to a cafe to meet a friend for lunch ( I had tuna and Kale salad...ugh) and they had one of the absolute BEST coffee brands I've ever tasted - and I still didn't get any. I was so strong.
I feel like I will probably end up drinking some soon. I just really miss it.
I will try to make it two whole weeks without it though, so that's four more days. FOUR MORE. It's just part of my morning ritual that I really love.
I've been working out steadily and really pushing myself. Even though I feel tired and achey, I find myself really pushing it at the gym and challenging myself.
I'm still not feeling hungry, but I definitely still miss eating meals. The shakes are tasty and I'm loading them up with nutrients, which is great, but I still miss my egg sandwiches for breakfast. I'm a huge breakfast eater.
Day - 11 Under pressure
I am realizing now more than ever just how attached I was emotionally to food. They say detoxing can bring out many emotions and for me it is. I'm quick to feel anger, sadness, and hurt where normally I am rather good at holding all that stuff in. I keep reaching for some cookie butter (that's right- I just said cookie butter. Trader Joes. You can thank me later) or chips or something. My stomach starts yearning as I pass a Del Taco (One of my go - to downward spiral into darkness therapies is binging on bad fast Mexican food). Not having that food to comfort me is forcing me to find other ways to really deal with what I'm feeling, other than burying it in a pile of nachos, and I think that's probably the biggest lesson I'll take away from this detox.
Turns out that Day 11 is the day I cheat with coffee. I couldn't take it anymore. I buckled. I cracked. I had a latte (with almond milk!) It was amazing and totally worth it. One thing the detox is taught me is that I'll never give coffee up, but I can certainly drink it less often, and I think I'm going to try to stick with that.
Totally had coffee again, but with almond milk . I'm definitely not craving it as much as I used to, and I think for me it is really just the ritual I miss most (and the taste, because I'm one of those crazies who loves the taste of coffee!)
My pants feel a bit looser, but I haven't re-measured myself. I'm scared to. I know I probably haven't lost any significant amount of inches, but I also know that that's OK. I just know how I can be with numbers and really want to focus on how I feel and the good work I'm doing. I definitely feel way better than I thought I would I get really tired mid day, but I have been able to push myself during my workouts, and I don't feel heavy and sluggish after meals. I feel pretty fantastic overall.
This weekend was a challenge again but I made it. No alcohol or really bad food except for some popcorner chips (which are gluten free!) and a tiny bit of dark chocolate. I'm really proud of that. Despite the stress I'm under I am still being true to putting healthy foods in my body instead of binging on Taco Hell or worse...
PS I made this delicious quinoa Parmesan crusted chicken recipe from the detox plan and it was MUY DELICIOSO.