You cannot force the heart's fulfillment. You cannot forcibly flick the switch to light it up-It must be ignited.
I was standing at the precipice of everything I thought I'd wanted and needed. Only to realize that sure, maybe I wanted it all-but I didn't need it all, not yet. It wouldn't make me feel whole-it wasn't what was missing.. I was looking for completion in a path that, when I really thought about it, would eventually only bring me regret, resentment, and sorrow. And that wouldn't have been fair. Not to anyone.
The brain and the heart don't see eye to eye. You can't attempt to rationalize or decipher what you feel or why you feel it-emotion is something to be felt, experienced, cherished, and at times hated- but understood? NEVER. And that can be the most terrifying thing.